The last couple of years have been strange. For everyone, I suspect. I have found myself exploring things that surprise me and I’m just not sure where to talk about it. So naturally, I thought I would start my own blog. Maybe find some like minded folks out in the wide world of the internet. Hopefully?

I’ve always been an avid reader and enjoy all types of genres especially fantasy. You know, elves, magic, heroes, villians, etc. My reading took off when I discovered Kindle Unlimited with our Amazon Prime subscription. I always swore I wouldn’t be one of those people that no longer bought books and only read on electronic devices. Yep, be careful what you say cause life is tricky that way. There were so many books to choose from and I didn’t have to leave my living room. Not a good excuse, I know, but there you are. Maybe I could blame some of it on COVID?

Ok – another reason is that no one really sees the kind of books you are reading either. That is probably the main reason since I moved from fantasy to reverse harem to enemies-to-friends. I discovered alpha and omega books, as well as the omegaverse genre. Most of the books I was reading weren’t ones that I would necessarily want others to know about. The covers alone would have raised eyebrows.

It was literally a whole new world that opened up for me. I don’t consider myself a prude, but I definitely hadn’t experienced very much in my life. And I wanted to. Yes, I am talking about sex.

Sex with multiple partners…

Sex as a submissive getting spankings…

Sex as a dominant giving spankings…

Sex in a variety of positions…

And there is where things took a different turn. Due to my limited experience, I was having a hard time visualizing the descriptions from the books which wasn’t because of the author. I just couldn’t imagine it. Could things really fit that way?

So, I decided I needed to do some research. And I found, yes you guessed it, porn. I knew it was out there, but didn’t have a reason to watch. Or so I thought. Ok – there is some (maybe a lot of?) stuff I don’t need to see again. And it was definitely more geared towards men than women. It filled in the images of some of the positions, but there was a distinctive lack of romance that was in the books.

Then I managed to enter the right search criteria and found a video that was a little less “standard” and more chemistry between the performers. Yes, there was still the obligatory cum shot on the face, but the rest of it was more sensual. And a porn star crush was born…

After a little internet sleuthing (aka looking up the actress on the website that produced the video and then looking at the credits for that particular video), I found the male performer was named Damon Dice. And the search was on to find out more about him…

If you are curious about his work, I would suggest the videos that were produced by Bellesa (bellesa.co). He has quite a bit on Youtube, but I prefer the story format instead of some of the other stuff available even though he is pretty hot in all of it.

I feel like I have my obsession mostly under control, but that hasn’t prevented me from watching more videos and learning more about him outside of his adult career. I’ll use that as a starter for my next blog.

Thanks for reading!